BloodyBitch

ok, i'm seriously fucked up.
just quarreled with baby.
he's having a fever.

& he always hangs out
at night till so fucking late.
& he don't have enough rest.
& he gets sick.
SEE, WHAT HE ALWAYS DO TO HIMSELF ?!
he was suppose to meet me today !!
and he just message me
i think i'm not coming today.
i'm having a fever.

ok, i know i should be sympathetic.
but hello. i'm fucking pissed off.
cause i have much more
serious things to be concern off.
&all i wanted was YOU baby
to be with me &
give me some love.

& yesterday when i broke the
bad news to you one the phone.
& when i met you outside.
you were like giving me a black face
for i don't know what reason.
then you didn't even ask
how i feel. & am i alright ?!

you didn't even bother to hold my hand.
& we quarrell.
back at home, you still didn't ask about it.
& i had to go eat dinner with my family.
i asked you to tag along
but you didn't want.
YOU WANT BEDOK.

ok, i promised you the other time
that i'll give you time for yourself.
so you went bedok.
and when i called you.

you were at some fucking girl's
bbq celebrating her birthday ?!
you tell me you didn't even talk to her.
but she's your friend.
& you are not close to her.
so why would you want to go ?!

i don't think we even celebrated
MY BRITHDAY !
and here you are celebrating
some random girl birthday.

put yourself in my shoes.
if you call me one day
i was supposed to be at home.
but i told you
i'm at my friend's party
peter is his name.
i know him.
but not close.
i never talk to him

ask yourself.
i'm sure you'll blow up
& explode.
you'l be fucking angry.
then why you do this to me ?

i know you're GOOD
enough to come look for me amost everyday.
but i do treat you good don't i ?

& you're sick.
fever. =0
you think i'm not worried ?!
i might be going mad on the phone.
but i'm like fucking concern about
YOU !!!!

why should i always say out
my feelings.
why don't you spare a thought for me?
have you ever stop for a moment
and ask yourself.
why would my gf be acting this way ?

i don't blow my top for no reasons.
you've been making lots of promises.
& breaking them frequently.
sometimes i do understand
why you're acting this way.

everytime you do something wrong.
you just say SORRY.
what more can i do ?
scold you ?
ask for a break up ?
i don't do such things baby.
you're like so fucking important to me.
& i wouldn't such a foolish thing.
so i ust have to keep quiet.
and let the mater rest.

i called you around
40plus times i think.
JUST NOW !
you can message me.
but when i call you the next moment.
you don't pick up.
what are you trying to prove to me ?
and i called you non-stop.
each time hoping that i won't hear
the stupid woman telling me
i've reached your mailbox.
hoping that i will hear
your sleepy voice saying hello.

they day before.
i think i called you 80plus times !
you didn't pick up a single call.
i message you like so much.
no replys.
& i wasn't sure of anything.
where were you.
what you were doing.

i called from 8pm.
and till 2.50plus am
i got a message from you.
and you were outside all the time !
not sleeping !
you just delibrately ignored
my calls !!!

and you promised to pick up
my calls the next time.
no matter what.
and today ?
after don't know how many calls.
you finally pick up.

i really can't understand.
why i can reply message asap
even though i'm sleeping.
and answer your calls even if i'm
halfway through my sleep.

and i'm fucking pissed with everything.
nothing seems to be alright.

ITS THE HOLIDAYS YOU KNOW !
and i have so much things crashing
on to me.
i feel like i'm suffocating ?

I HATE GOD !
seriously.
don't tell me he does things for a reason.
and don't tell me.
he's trying to teach me to manage my anger
or fuking make me gain experience
with all these troubles.
he isn't al mighty.
he is just an imaginary friend
to people who actually
thinks he exist.
and people claim they see god.
don't make me laugh.
ask god to come talk to me.
or maybe ask god to come
visit me.
to see how true is he.
OMFG.
i hate god.

oh dear.

can anyone save me.

ps. NOT GOD

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