BloodyBitch

OH FUCK !
i ain't feeling better.
not even a single bit.

i heard that you're fine now.
no more fever.
& i'm glad to hear that.

you can even accomapany
your friend to do things. =0

i don't think you
wanna meet me tmr.

i shall not force you either.
i know you're getting
sick of me.

don't deny.
i can feel it.

now, you don't even bother
to give me a message
when you wake up.
when you go out.
or even a simple message ?

i was the one messaging
you first all the time.
why can't you have the intiative ?

must i always be the one ?
to do everything first.

sometimes i really wonder
why am i always the one.
to have to go through all these shit.

you ain't the first guy treating
me this way uh.
i kinda fed up of everything.
everything thats going on in my life.

you messaged me just.
to tell me to meet you on friday.
& i was like why not tmr.
you replied.
I'M TIRED.
SO MEET ON FRIDAY.

well, let me tell you.
i'm gonna be tired on friday.
and i wana sleep in that day.
so friday i don't wana meet you.

& from now on, honey
i don't want you to be coming
to hougang to find me.

we shall only meet on the days
when i'm available.
and when you're available.

this way, you won't get sick of me.
& you won't tell me your
tired of coming everyday.

seeee, am i the
understanding girlfriend
you have ever wanted all this while ?
happy ain't you.
i bet.

my feeling for you
is still ever so strong.

my love for you
has never ever once faded.

what about you ?
you can say that you didn't.

but your actions
& your words.
are telling me the opposite.

i'm missing you like fuck.
you just don't know how i'm feeling.

& you don't know whats
going on with me.

even i write so much on blog.
i know you don't see my blog.
YOU DON'T HAVE THE TIME.

too busy with other stuffs.
hah. i'm dying.

and still noone understands.
i know there are many people
who care for me !
just by looking at the tagboard.
at least i know im being loved.

there's so much of tags.
but none from my bf ?

i see how other care for me
more than my bf. =0

i just wanna lie on a
big patch of green grass
watching the clouds go by.

i guess i'll be much happier
this way yea.

there's too much for me to handle.

& when i look at the little kids
below my block.
see how carefree are they.

i wished i would just turn back
into a kid and enjoy life.

kids are the most happiest
living things on earth.

i walk to the busstop alone.
missing the times when i
push you the the other side.
just to see your face.

i get down the bus
missing the times when
i turn to look for you after i get down.
just to hold your hand.
& give you my brightest smile.

i come home
missing the times when
i scream your name.
just to ask you to
put my bag properly.

i lie on my bed.
missing the times when
we will look into each other eyes
say nothing but just smile.

our 10th month anni is coming.
& i'm not looking forward to it.
thats considered my doomday.
cause i'll need to be in sch
for some reasons.
but on the same day
it means something
special to me and you.

i miss you.

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