first at foremost, i'll like to tell everyone that RACH is just kidding. she's trying to cuss me out to see is baby would cuss her back. =x she don't mean anything. so pls don't hate her . (:

and to all thoes who think nick and i are the cutest/perfect/sweetest couple you've ever seen, i would like to say a thank you. (: but you know sometimes things do change.=/ as for now , i don't think we fit in the names you've labelled us as.=/

things are soo not the same. you changed sososo much. you keep telling me that i'm thinking too much. but i don't think thats the case. all the things you did, made me feel that way. all the late comings and early leavings. all the time you're with me , you'll say - I'M TIRED. can i leave early , i really tired. but in the end, i'll find you at some lanshop playing dota. whats this all about? i know i say i'll try to understand you, be a better girlfriend. and i keep giving in, you keep taking. i never asked for anything much. all i want is you to be there for me. is it really that difficult ? and baby , every word you said and promise you made to me, i remember them clearly. you promised me that you'll won't ton outside and go home before its late to get enough sleep so you can accompany me. but i think you spen the whole night at night safari with your friends , and the next say you came over and slept till you're leaving & in the end go out with your friends in the night again. you take the time with me to sleep , to energize yourself so you can have energry to dota or go out with your friends in the night. you know how i feel about that? you told me to message you if i needed you to call me. and i think i message you a dozen times, you don't even give me a call or reply me once. and you're scolding me more often. you asked me where my understanding go to ? understand ki lan ? =/ this is what you said to me. and you think just by saying a sorry is enough? you know your words hurt me like fuck. when you was waiting for the bus, i asked you again, if you wanna accompany me to eat. you was like i very tired. and you went back bedok to dota. =/ friends are like more important to you now. i'm just like nothing. i'm trying hard to give in to you. give whatever you want to you. what you wanna do , everything. but you took me for granted. jess said that all guys are like that. they'll get sick of you , the relationship & take you for granted. yea , i think so. thats what you're doing to me. you promised to look for me today. but you just messaged me to say that you're not coming cause you have a job interview. & i even offered to go down bedok to look for you after your interview. but you was like see first ? you told me later your friends going out , you work. never meet one day won't die. one day only what~ but last time , you never meet me one day, you'll be like i can die. you miss me everything. but now , i don't hear you say-imissyou anymore. you should know that i seldom get to go out on weekends. and today is friday and you're telling me this. the ONE DAY ONLY WHAT~ make me feel sososo bad. i don't know what to do or say to you now. i don't even know can i trust you now. everyone knows how much i love you and i can't last a single day without you. but now i'm thinking of going MIA from you. you can imagine how hurt i am & the pain you put me through. you hurt me so bad till i just feel like running away from you and everything & wished that i don't exist.

I'LL HOLD ON TILL EVERYTHING'S OVER. ima superwoman-wannabe

i just want everything to be back to where it was. ):
i miss baby. )':